Nolita fairytale

papersoflove @ 2009-05-16T14:22:00

2009-05-16T06:24:38Z

I realise the people who make you weaker also makes you stronger.
Is just weird.
Everyone around me is just weird.
they have no life.
they really dont.

But im taking it lightly because criticisms make me stronger too.
i dont know. life is not getting any better by the way.
but SHIT happens all the time
so whatever.
i will get through this year even if i dislike it so much.

friends of inconveniances

2009-05-14T11:06:27Z

today was such a fucking bad day for me.
you know why.
all thanks to this friend. uh wait i wouldnt call her a friend.
Just a CLASSMATE.

Today we were suppose to hand up our media portfolio.
& since i have already told her that my file was so neatly filed, she should go ask someone else.
Maybe i would call myself unlucky, cause most of my groupmates didnt have the full version of our evaluation.
she took my file and messed it up.
& btw i took freaking 15 minutes to file it so nicely.
when she came back, my papers were all over the place.

After that i checked my file and i realise i missed out written script.
so i decided to photocopy from her(surprisingly)
she willingly volunteered to help me photocopy but when i was with her, she was talking to my fellow classmates in the library.
i was so shocked - as what jenna says - she is capable of doing all this crap, i totally believed her.
&she also lied to me. she told me she had no money to help me photocopy my missing pages but i saw her at the 4th level cafe eating!
you know how bullshit that is!

& im also fucking sway cause for radio broadcasting im with her!
thanks to kathy im stuck with her-i know omg.
anyway i have less job to do since she wanna be the first announcer- sure i let her be.
i will just need to do my advertisements, quotes of the day and jokes.
simple.

i wont ever lend you my stuff already.
is your problem , you go solve it on your own.
if your printer got no ink , go get a ink cartridge lah.
gosh.

papersoflove @ 2009-05-07T18:06:00

2009-05-07T10:08:52Z

turning back the clock is never easy.
the clock has to move on.
we have to face it (whats around us)
we can never run away with it. Face it and Live with it.
Things will be the same if only we change for the better.
Look forward to everything thats coming to us.
Running away from it will never be solved.
If things can be the same again, i won't be on this stage now.

papersoflove @ 2009-04-17T23:00:00

2009-04-17T15:03:01Z

My world is crashing down slowly.
I dont know whats wrong with people whom i was once close with, they are turning from friends to strangers. Soon each and everyone of them would soon be gone in my life.
Isit acturlly worth it losing them?
I have no comments. I hate the feeling of people coming and going in my life.

I have to thank patricia, junying,weijie and chelsy for listening to me rant these few days.
Well i hate being a burden to you 3 . I really hate it.
But i have to let it out somehow. I do not want to keep it unspoken, it would hurt me even more.
I believe in the thing called karma.

This world is full of evil people who are proud & wants to create trouble.
i hope i would get through it soon.
im scared.

papersoflove @ 2009-04-15T18:27:00

2009-04-15T10:37:49Z

bitch, stop thinking that your the best.
i dont give a damn if your a councillor anot.
i bet many others dont even know your a councillor too.
so stop saying that many people are talking about me- is pure bullshit.
because i do have other friends and supporters too.

by the way, i dont care if you hate me or not.
the fact that you assume that i told the class about amanda and____
is such a lie,
maybe i have forgotten about what i said, but you dont have to be fucking sensitive by saying that you would side the school instead of me.
in fact i dont need you to side me. well you can laugh and mock at me and talk crap about me.
i dont give a shit cause i am immune to it for so many years. this is nothing to me. your the one kicking a big fuss about it.

besides have you heard of karma?
if you talked bad about others, it would come back to you in the end.
sorry to say, please set a good example as a councillor-so if you wanna bitch, go ahead.
being a councillor is just one step higher than a student , other than that- your STILL A STUDENT.

Anyway my main focus to go to school is to do well and get good grades so that i can get into a good uni.
So whatever has happens, i would move on no matter what.
if you do not believe im telling the truth and you trust others, go ahead.
it shows that you lack of trust in our friendship.
now i know why the word trust is not found in a friend's dictionary.

i've seen the true colours of you.

papersoflove @ 2009-04-03T18:29:00

2009-04-03T10:30:40Z

fuck i hate politics.

papersoflove @ 2009-03-31T17:07:00

2009-03-31T09:08:08Z

hellos; i miss you quite terribly.

papersoflove @ 2009-03-30T16:21:00

2009-03-30T08:23:20Z

The climb-miley cyrus

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah)

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

ps: i hate school. really do.
why must it always be me? i seriously wish i can graduate fast and get out of this class.
seriously, why of all people R AND D must keep picking on me.
such a fuck.
screw it. seriously

save you

2009-03-16T12:42:03Z

Don't walk in front of me; I may not follow.
Dont walk behind me: i may not lead.
Just walk beside me and be my friend.
albert camus

papersoflove @ 2009-03-13T19:57:00

2009-03-13T12:02:03Z

I PASSED MEDIA!
but is not a good grade.
41/80 is just a passing grade.
oh wells.

I DISLIKE INTERNSHIP!
today i had to travel 15 stops just to reach paya lebar mrt.
&& i had to take 158 to reach to joo seng && we had to walk.
by the time we reach there, there werent stuff for us to do.
so practically we were stoning.
i didnt learn much today.

Anyway i hope i can pass the rest of my subjects.
gahh, is so worrying.

I need a balloon to cheer me up.

2009-03-12T12:43:48Z

Aftermath of exams,
My mum suppose to bring me to get MAC but we didnt get it cause she didnt feel like going to ISETAN.
so we went to takashimaya.I finally got my hands on cecelia ahern's ''the gift'' , going to read it once im done talking to rachel lee.
I spend 50 bucks on a rainbow checkered bag(:Is going to be my term 2 backpack, im kind of sick of my red crumpler. But i have to wait 2 freaking weeks for it to arrive, i prefer instock items though. PATIENCE ELAINE PATIENCE!

Anyway common assesments was difficult.
Including those subjects im good at.
Today media, there were 4 questions and apparently storyboard took me 20 minutes just to think of the plot.
My plot was so lame, i named my character Lightning and the other characters were rain and thunder.
Try thinking of a story on a spot people.I think i copyright powerpuff girls-oops?

Tomorrow i start internship,
im sorry to those people whom i suppose to meetup with.
My life currently is like a bee , too busy.
I would find time in June to meet you peeps , if i dont have supplementary lessons.

papersoflove @ 2009-03-10T12:20:00

2009-03-10T04:24:27Z

Im finally done with my heavy papers such as maths and econs.
I hope i can pass my econs though.
cause everyday i have been reading econs. well a pass would be enough.

Lets see, everything in my life is going on a roller coaster ride.
exams and friends. i want to slow down time.
i am trying to take one step at a time.
I kinda miss mr ling. oh wells , he would only be back next week.

Friday im starting work. im definitely not looking forward to it.
apparently in the film area, it would be me and sarah.
Anyway i want to pass all my CAs. i so wish i could pass all of them.
anyway i have done my best, let god do the rest.

Im tired. going to nap.

Gratitude

2009-02-12T10:48:12Z

Today's devotion was so good.
Mr james teo was talking about gratitude.
Well i guess i am contented with my life.
I've wonderful friends and family who surrounds me even in my sadest moments.
I feel that my family and friends are priceless to me, besides Money cant buy you happiness.
why do you want so much money when your unhappy?
makes sense?

My friends in class are treating me well although i am alone.
But im used to it.
I know i have a purpose of going to school which is studying and not much of socialising.
I am taking a day at a time, just being myself and focusing in my work.
well, i tend to gossip when people gets on my nerves but mr ling said is natural.
I do not want to try to fit in in any cliques or whatsoever, because i know i would regret it.
Am i making a right decision?

I think i am. I am happy (: People are talking to me.

papersoflove @ 2009-02-10T18:10:00

2009-02-10T10:10:47Z

My family and friends mean the world to me. I don't believe in ranking, i believe in balancing.

papersoflove @ 2009-02-05T18:45:00

2009-02-05T10:52:02Z

I am so emo.
I have made a huge mistake.
Now im losing another friend of mine.

papersoflove @ 2009-02-03T17:34:00

2009-02-03T09:39:23Z

I dont like my life.
but i guess those in junior colleges arent having a good life as me too.
I am sleeping at 12-1am just studying on my stupid buisness tests.
& i get so worried cause im afraid i cant perform well for my tests.
Shit lah, what the hell is wrong with me lah.
I dont think i can sleep tonight too cause economics test is so important.
Going to burn the midnight oil again.
i hate my life. i really do.

papersoflove @ 2009-01-31T17:32:00

2009-01-31T09:35:25Z

Elaine has no life.
Her life everyday basically is studying.
She has accounts test on tuesday and economics test on wednesday.
& matrix questions to do, english presentations, maths unviariate data, finding 2 media pictures which juxtopose and accounts depreciation question.

cny ((:

2009-01-26T10:37:48Z

Im so happy, i recieved 120 dollars altogether (:
plus i made 50 bucks from poker.
Everyone kept praising me cause i helped them win.
HAHA. Poor andrew, i shall not say.
Notice that most of us are wearing RED.
My chinese new year days are over ): I want more moolah.
Nevermind, i shall be contented cause this year has fianancial crisis.

eve of cny

2009-01-25T14:03:24Z

Reunion dinner with Family plus dad's side relatives.
Place: Crystal jade palace in takashimaya.
((:

papersoflove @ 2009-01-23T11:09:00

2009-01-23T03:12:42Z

I shall post in advance cause im too excited
to collect angbaos!! (:

XIN NIAN KUAI LE, WAN SHI RU YI
ang bao na lai D:

Lovebug

2009-01-21T09:47:41Z

Ignore the image.
Im so addicted to the song Lovebug.
Anyone who has this song, please send me.
This song is stuck in my head.

now im speechless over the edge
& just breathless.
hopeless head over the heels
never thought i could get this lovebug all over again

papersoflove @ 2009-01-16T17:58:00

2009-01-16T10:02:57Z

i must be a fool playing by the rules.

papersoflove @ 2009-01-15T21:14:00

2009-01-15T13:23:24Z

A series of unfortunate events i would say.
It seems like everyone has changed totally.
Why do you even bother talking to me when you want to be friends with them?
Seriously you told me not to care but yet you care so much about your fame with ''them''.

Why the hell do i go to school for?
Since the whole freaking class hates me for no apparent reason.
If you think your so perfect , why not think a little harder. I have feelings too you know, you people are just being inmature by talking bad about me because you dont have a subject to talk about?

Gosh , grow up man. Everyone of you are older than me yet none of you are acting like one.
Arent there enough drama in your life?
You want to be famous, you got it.

Anyway i shall quote from audrey hepburn:
Your heart just breaks, that's all. But you can't judge, or point fingers. You just have to be lucky enough to find someone who appreciates you.

i dont give a damn if anyone of you read this. Reflect on yourself first before judging others.

papersoflove @ 2009-01-11T08:37:00

2009-01-11T00:42:12Z

YAY im officially 18 years old!
Thanks for all the wishes on facebook, sms, and presents.
& not forgetting all who turned up to my party yesterday.
Hope you people enjoyed yourself(:
Thanks for making my special day a meaningful one.

papersoflove @ 2009-01-10T12:50:00

2009-01-10T04:57:30Z

I wonder why am i so sad since yesterday.
My friends are the ones affecting me so badly that i do not feel like going to school at all.
I know fame isnt everything.Popularity wont get you anywhere.
But i need friends.

What the fish is wrong with the world.
People change within a day, a year, a month without us knowing.
It scares me sometimes. The thought that everyone is ignoring me and treating me like im invisible.
I have a close friend in class last year and this year she betrayed my trust and went to the other set of friends whom she knows i hate alot.
Is she doing this to get back on me? cause if she were, she is really inmature.

Im holding back my tears and try to take one step at a time.
I should be happy , im turning 18 tomorrow but the problems i am facing are too much for me.
I do have friends but they are all in a different class.
Time need to fly by quickly, i really need to get out of this toot school.

The only people whom i can trust now are my outside friends.
and my teachers whom can listen to me and my problems.
why am i doing this to myself?
I dont know. I am hurting myself more than im hurting others.
Im a threat to people in my class.
& i do not like the way it is.